Inside My Pain

Time has come, I hoped he would not,
but it took me by surprise like a bolt from blue sky,
thought to please people I have met
over the years. I started to lose myself
left parent’s house for a while, i slowly moved away from my friends,
love drift away from people close to me because of my insecurities,
my uncertainties.
I see the world go on without me, I see people laugh, I scream in the face,
«What the fuck are you laughing at, fool, life sucks»
Inside my pain I search the «why»
Inside my pain I search the «why me!?»
Inside my pain I understand that only heart really knows what to do
My heart, yeah, I try to listen to, I try to follow him, but I’m scared to look
ahead
nobody can suggest what step to do, I feel like hanging on to, a rope ready to
break,
Tell me how do I find the strength, to get out of this vortex of apathy,
i can’t do it alone you know, please give me a sign
Inside my pain I search the «why»
Inside my pain I search the «why me!?»
Inside my pain I have to find the strength to react, strength to react
Another year ended, the new is almost worse
I also believe someone loves me, and he’s trying to get me back,
the desire to live,
desire to believe, desire to believe, desire to believe.