On the Floor

I’m trying
But still I close my eyes
The dreaming
Bringing his face to mine
Lock the door
The constant buzzing
All through the night
The fight it
Rips me all up inside
On the floor
I pace, I run my mouth
I pray and wait
I cross out his name on the page
(How long 'til) this washes away?
(How long 'til) my body is safe?
(How long 'til) I walk in the light?
(How long 'til) this heart isn’t mine?
The rise and fall
Of his chest on me
I’m trying
But still it’s all I see
The violent
Current of energy
I hide it
Away and underneath
Lock the door
I shake, I promise everyday
To change
I cross out his name on the page
(How long 'til) this washes away?
(How long 'til) my body is safe?
(How long 'til) I walk in the light?
(How long 'til) this heart isn’t mine?
Take this wildness away
I’m trying
But still I close my eyes
The dreaming
Bringing his face to mine
Out the door
I pace, I run my mouth
I pray to change
I cross out his name on the page
(How long 'til) this washes away?
(How long 'til) my body is safe?
(How long 'til) this heart isn’t mine?
I just want him in my arms
I just want him in my arms