Impossible to Hide

I thought I knew my fears, virtues and strengths
Everything seemed to be so clear in my head, now it’s so hard
To feeling through my corrupted heart
To realize how my sick thoughts flow
I am now a shadow of what I was
Determined to avenge at any cost
I would have liked, for my thoughts, not to have seen what I saw
Sometimes I know I’m wrong, but I tend to do evil, don’t mind
If all of what I think is for a vice
You don’t know how I struggled to survive
I refused to realize, because of that pain
Realize that you can exist as someone else
Then, you didn’t know my illnss
You thought that I was just tired
How to know what was wrong or right?
And if you don’t care
What’s going on with my thoughts
Neithr I care, I will not care about your lives
Impossible to Hide this sadness in my eyes
And then, once again, appears before my presence
Again and again I will fail again, it explodes my senses, but why
Did you have to appear at that moment?
Challenging every founded omen
The humiliations are the reason for my rage
They were in charge of forging the way I hate
Then, you didn’t know my illness
You thought that I was just tired
How to know what was wrong or right?
And if you don’t care what’s going on with my thoughts
Neither I care, I will not care about your lives
Again
I lost my force, my pride is on a «comes and goes»
You will never know how much contempt I accumulated since you go
(Lead: Javier.)
Trying to disintegrate that pain, I waited
What I do now, knowing that it is a fake?
Find it out would be hard, you knew that well
I will never really know when or why
I empathized with the broken hearts
Sometimes you seemed to extend your arms to me
It was the only thing you had to give or just leave
I already expressed you all the hate I feel
Although, the truth is that I need you here
Because this sorrow is what keeps me alive