Leave Me Be (Not Me)

Daylight shines too bright when you’re slugging through the same old story
I hope this bender spells the end
A moment of cracked clarity, bells sound out in epiphany:
You hate all of your friends
Foreign body sensation, stress echo
Get wasted to annihilate your superego
Drunk and stupid
Talking too loud
Go ahead, smoke another cigarette
Resign yourself to your early death
You want someone to hold your head
You want someone to take you to your bed
You want someone to watch you sleep
You would like a tireless ear
A human chamber pot to catch all your tears
You want someone to watch you bleed
Not me
Nightmares, dreaming
Woke up screaming
Happens often… often lately
Now I’m drunk and lonely at a party
Pointless, really
There’s nothing here worth seeing
You need a more permissive mother in your heart
Or at least a plastic icon who will bend you over like you’ve always wanted
You want someone to control you
Somebody to console you
Someone to forgive your little lies
Someone kind
Not me
I’ve been waiting for a new life
To come crashing into mine to
Make me feel whole
Make me feel fine
Lift my tired eyes to the infinite sky
Sleep in old woods under wet trees
This dirt someday will hold our bodies