Pretending

I saw the face in the window
Lighting up a ciarette
Smoky brown eyeshadow
I learnt it from a woman on the internet
Oh, how the hell have you been, babe?
Put your coat on the bed
Let me get you a cup, sip it up
Up right to your head
All the people over there
They don’t seem to have a care
I’m so fucking self-aware
It’s exhausting
And no matter how I try
I repeat it every night, every night, every night, very night
I’m done pretnding, pretending, done pretending
All of my heroes are way more sad than me
Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending
Oh, who are you are you so afraid
To be, to be, to be, to be, to be
I lied about liking your dress
I lied about sticking around
I lied about knowing the band
That you talked and talked all night about
So take it up with the jury
'Cuz I don’t really care anymore
And if you listen real close you might just hear
The penny dropped on the floor
All the people over there
They don’t seem to have a care
I’m so fucking self-aware
It’s exhausting
And no matter how I try
I repeat it every night, every night, every night, every night
I’m done pretending, pretending, done pretending
All of my heroes are way more sad than me
Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending
Oh, who are you are you so afraid
To be, to be, to be, to be, to be
(Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending)
Leave me alone
(Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending)
I wanna go home
(Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending)
Leave me alone
(Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending)
I wanna go—
(Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending)