Heavy

do you think about me at night?
when the sky is losing light
I swear my head fills up with memories every time
are you moving on with your life?
did you find a job you like?
I always thought you could do anything
and I've been running over all the things that I will never say to you
like how I just wanna hang with you
and watch grand designs
I’ve been trying to train my mind to put you in another category
but it’s still not coming naturally
after all this time
tell me
why this has to be
so heavy
‘cause I really thought that we’d be cool
some exception to the rule
but honestly
I think it has to be this heavy
I wish your mum and I could be friends
I think about her now and then
how we drove up to her house
I'll never see that dog again
guess I needed a minute
to live a life without you in it
but you’re in every stripy t-shirt that I own
oh I've been running over all the things that I will never say to you
like how I just wanna sing with you
as we’re walking home
and I’ve been kissing different faces just to make it a reality
I did it for the therapy
but I felt alone
tell me
why this has to be
so heavy
‘cause I really thought that we’d be cool
some exception to the rule
but honestly
I think it has to be this heavy
do you think about
do you think about, think about
do you think about
do you think about it too?