Janie

Why do I feel like I’m always
Gonna get it right next time
When every time I open my eyes
I repeat the same shit that makes
Me lose at everything I do
Every time I try to do good
I’m made a fool
A fucking cesspool of lies
But in my head I think they’re true
I think it’s time I clear my mind
And fess up for everytime I’ve lied
But not tonight, theres not enough time
I’d rather just get high and write down
All the times I’ve been this low
And all the shit I’ve put you through
You’ll never know
I’m a selfish imbecile
You don’t love me
You love what I say to you
I fucking hate myself
I hate my friends
I hate my job, I hate everything but you
I fucking hate myself
I hate my friends
I hate my job, I hate everything but you
But you, but you, but you, but you
Which is why I can not tell you
What you deserve to know
If you leave I swear I’ll end it all right here
Do you really want me to?
But don’t know what the fuck else I should do