Covert

You know I have this unrelenting fear
That I’m wasting every minute, every hour that I’m living here
I won’t ask for sympathy
Just the understanding that I can’t change that part of me
I’m just so scared to admit, act like I don’t give a shit
Hide behind this masquerade
Hide behind this masquerade
So sick of being like this
Trapped in this ignorant bliss
The very fabric of my being
Is fucking torn
You know I have this unrelenting fear
That I’m fighting the days, but I’m losing the years
It’s calling my name
Every day is the same
Except this voice in my head
Is merely fueling the flames
It’s calling my name
Just show me what it means for me to feel again
It’s calling my name
So take me away
From this godforsaken place
These empty eyes and fake smiles made me believe
I am defective, my own worst enemy
Put up these walls to hide my secret
My deepest cause I know you won’t believe it
You won’t believe
I’m just so scared to admit, act like I don’t give a shit
Hide behind this masquerade
Hide behind this masquerade
So sick of feeling like this
Trapped in this ignorant bliss
To live to like this
Trapped in this ignorant bliss