If I'm Still Breathing, Then I'm Still Waiting

I can see my outer body float above my bed
When I’m deprived is when I try and sink instead
I’ve been terrified of what’s behind those hazy eyes
So rip them out and end it
Backed in a corner like a fox I shape shift my way away
Lunacy derived from the spirit that’s now possessing me
Slave to the illusion
Black White
Day Night
Dark Light
Peace Fight
How did it ever come to this, holding the knife in my hands?
Being fearless left me lifeless
But now I’m finding out I fell in doubt
All these visions seem to never let me go
So maybe if I’m still breathing (then I’m still waiting)
For someone like you to kill me soon
Focus
I’m living inside a box of glass
I watch it crack, I watch it
Shatter
As if any of this would matter
Every clock is broken
Everything is still
And I slowly fade away
Watch me clean up the guts I spilled
And I hope that you enjoy the show
I’m begging you to just kill me now
We’re overthrown
The innocent sinning
The world isn’t spinning
I’m all alone
Caught in your gravity
And it’s been hell for me