Godlight

There’s no way out of an angry crowd without stepping on some toes
They’ll scream your name till the lights go out then they feed you to the wolves
It’s hard to say who you’ll be when they let those big red curtains close
You know this
Cause you told me so
I bet you forgot
Black heels in the summertime
Dad’s bad cooking though you’d be polite
Honey now you got a look that I can’t recognize
Pulled me aside
And you said
To know me
Is to hate me
Is to hate what I’ve become
It’s to watch me
As I’m falling
From that ladder’s last rung
It’s to feel it
Like a secret
You can’t keep in
I’m not the way I was
I’m not the way I was
Were you freed within, did you leave your skin?
Are you tethered in your doubt?
Have you breathed it in till it’s medicine that you cannot live without?
Cause you came back home a fuckin' alien and we’re stuck here on the ground
Call mom back kid before the high comes down
Cause you forgot
Black heels in the summertime
Dirt road smoking on a Friday night
Now you got a look that I don’t recognize
You pulled me aside and you said
To know me
Is to hate me
Is to hate what I’ve become
It’s to watch me
As I’m falling
From that ladder’s last rung
It’s to feel it
Like a secret
You can’t keep in
I’m not the way I was
I’m not the way I was
But to feel it
To see it
The look in all their eyes
Is to breathe in
To be in
The good grace of that God Light
To have it in your hands
The one thing you wanted all your life
«It's all mine»
But there’s a hole I can’t fill
There’s a curse I can’t break
And I gave my soul to it
And it can’t be reclaimed
I was younger then
I was younger then
I was young
To know me
Is to hate me
Is to hate what I’ve become
It’s to watch me
As I’m falling
From that ladder’s last rung
It’s to feel it
Like a secret
You can’t keep in
I’m not the way I was
I’m not the way I was
But to feel it
To see it
The look in all their eyes
Is to breathe in
To be in
The good grace of that Godlight
It’s to have it in your hands
The one thing you wanted all your life
«It's all mine»
And to feel it
To see it
The look in all your eyes
Is to breathe in
To be in
The good grace of this Godlight
It’s to have it
In your hands
The one thing I wanted my life
It’s all mine