Katie

Katie, I’m truly sorry if I hurt you in any way
I’m dealing with addiction currently
And I can’t get clean
And I’m hurting you every day by doing it
Not seeing you, is what’s killing me
If it was not for me dying
You were the reason why I survived
Why I was fighting
Maybe if me and mom didn’t fight so much
We could of had a better life but
I messed too much with that
I’m never gonna talk to her again
So that means
Seeing you, Is never gonna happen
Maybe when you turn 18
Maybe things could be a little better
But I can’t, I’m trying to find myself
But I’m sorry, that’s all I say
And, if I make it from this hospital bed
Just know I love you
(Bridge)
I Don’t wanna tell you no
I just wanna say yes
I Don’t wanna say Goodbye
How did this become such a mess
I Don’t wanna tell you no
I just wanna say yes
I Don’t wanna say Goodbye, Goodbye
What i did was so fucking selfish
I never thought, killing myself would be this bad
But you needed a brother, and i neglected that
And I’m sorry
Every fucking note that wrote
Just know i always had you in the back of my mind
Even when I went broke
Always thought about
How I can benefit myself for you
Or how i can make life better
'Cause i didn’t have a childhood
But I’m trying to make it so you do
All I’m trying to do is make things better
You don’t even know your own father
That’s not your fault
Maybe things can get a little better for you
Just look up, think of me
Just know, I’m always thinking about you
And I’m sorry, I wasn’t there
But I should of been, shit
(Hook)
I Don’t wanna tell you no
I just wanna say yes
I Don’t wanna say Goodbye
How did this become such a mess
I Don’t wanna tell you no
I just wanna say yes
I Don’t wanna say Goodbye, Goodbye
Laying on a Hospital bed
Really made me think
What i did
I need to get clean
I got you in my life
And you were the greatest blessing
And I’m sorry
I just wish things were better
We had more time together
(Yeah)
Weekends cool, But i want you every day
I want to tell you how much i love you
And how much i wanna spend with you
I’m Neglecting you as a brother
And I’m sorry for that
Were supposed to be siblings
But we never got a chance to say better things
But you’re too young to understand
Everything i’m saying right now
When you get older maybe
But until then
Lifes gonna be grey for a while
While I go through recovery
But just know i love you (I'm sorry)
(Hook)
I Don’t wanna tell you no
I just wanna say yes
I Don’t wanna say Goodbye
How did this become such a mess
I Don’t wanna tell you no
I just wanna say yes
I Don’t wanna say Goodbye, Goodbye