Next of Kin to Chaos

Stuck in the learning hole
There is no teaching
That I can subscribe to —
Just the hatred of being afraid
Trapped in a nightmare
Nothing can alter this
Just another daydream
Calendar sadness
Lucid, inducing swarm
Becoming closer but getting colder
The caustic grip insane
Lucid induced
Pre-shaping destiny — hiding inside of me
Primate illusions of
How all this should be
Next of kin to chaos