Lament

Today he died
He stared in the void then took his own life
You watched me cry
Alone in the parking lot as I felt the now and forever collide
I fight in vain, try to deny, to push back the years, and the weight,
and the gray
But it’s in my face, the edge of the infinite, and we’re all just inches and
seconds away
My eyes are wide and I feel the weight
Sit down, breathe out, and try not to faint
Or be crushed by the scale of everything
What is man in the scope of existence?
Just a blink on a dot in the dark
But the patterns that weave through the distance
Bear a voice that proclaims who we are
Your love oh God, I feel the weight
For who am I that You know my name
And then leave me the seas to display with the stars
That of all you have made You set man apart
For we are Your treasure
Your heartbeat surrounds me
There aren’t words to describe what You’ve shown me
Each man is in your image
And walking around shining just like the sun
The depths are not void they resound with the truth
That there’s no peace to rest in, till we find our place in You
I see their souls, and feel the weight
Oh God forgive each word I waste
And grant that my throat with the sun would be raised
To banish the dark because I cannot take
Another death in my silence