Promise

I told a lot of lies
And called it a compromise
To keep you in your seat
I was so afraid to lose
But the things that I did to you
You would never do to me
Why do I-, why do I do it?
Why do I do it, huh?
You wanna hold my hand, I make a fist
A false promise
And even if you said you would forgive me
I don’t know if I could ever say I’m sorry
I don’t know if I—
(You said you would)
I don’t know if I can
I don’t know if I—
(You said you would)
I don’t know if I can
So I look at you now
Bruised and broken down
By what you thought was love
You tell me you want to stay
And you wanna watch me change
But I’m scared, so I tell you to fuck off