The Struggle

I’ve always been open about it but man
If it just reaches one or two people, you know?
And they understand that it’s rough
We deal with it how we deal with it
I’m thinkin' 'bout all y’all that suffers with this bull shit
'Cause I’m
I’m blackin' out again but I ain’t even drinkin'
I’m sailin' on the ocean and my ship it started sinkin'
The storm is comin' quickly and the rain it is a bringin'
I chose to ride this wave myself, it was what I was thinkin'
I’m a lost soul in a fish bowl
Lookin' at my past through the glass of this pain filled window
Picturin' my life, but man I got a foggy lens though
I lost so many feelin’s I don’t even feel the wind blow
I’m sick and tired, slip quick and lit the fire
Do not admire my head-sick, I’m uninspired
The way I’m wired leaves not much to be desired
And now they tell me I’m just cryin' to the choir
I speak my piece in peace then I repent
I’m one penny short so I can’t give my two cents
The world’s in my hands but it really makes no sense
Starin' in the mirror, man I wonder where it all went
The harder I try dog, the harder it gets
The further I slide y’all, the tougher I grit
It’s the father inside me that I’m tustlin' with
And the husband inside that I’ve been jugglin' with
Then them drunkardly lies that I’m strugglin' with
Now I’m hidin' my pride like I’m smugglin' it
Yeah, I wanted to die, man I wanted to quit
But there is no good-bye 'til I clean up my shit
I’m blackin' out again but I ain’t even drinkin'
I’m sailin' on the ocean and my ship it started sinkin'
The storm is comin' quickly and the rain it is a bringin'
I chose to ride this wave myself, it was what I was thinkin'
I’m a lost soul in a fish bowl
Lookin' at my past through the glass of this pain filled window
Picturin' my life, but man I got a foggy lens though
I lost so many feelin’s I don’t even feel the wind blow
I wake up every night from the same damn dream
I remember bein' members on the same damn team
I remember bein' younger when the world stood still
I remember last December when they gave me new pills
The doctor said it’s normal and the only way to heal
The masses think it’s funny but those asses never feel it
When the poundin' in your chest has barely even been addressed
Until they hit you with a label and they tell you you’re depressed
They throw a couple pills and they wish you all the best
The side effects mean nothin' bud but go on get your rest
From here on out with out a doubt there will be no regrets
Like an old ass shirt I had to get that off my chest
I’m blackin' out again but I ain’t even drinkin'
I’m sailin' on the ocean and my ship it started sinkin'
The storm is comin' quickly and the rain it is a bringin'
I chose to ride this wave myself, it was what I was thinkin'
I’m a lost soul in a fish bowl
Lookin' at my past through the glass of this pain filled window
Picturin' my life, but man I got a foggy lens though
I lost so many feelin’s I don’t even feel the wind blow
I’m blackin' out again but I ain’t even drinkin'
Lost soul in a fish bowl
Lookin' at my past through the glass of this pain filled window
Picturin' my life, but man I got a foggy lens though
I lost so many feelin’s I don’t even feel the wind blow