Motherhood

I sit and wonder why
All these cliche dreams that I
Keep spitting out like I will die
Without a thought made in my mind
You told me what to do
But no words made it through
I told you I wanted you, too
All of the pieces that make
Lonely days in Hamilton
I’m thinking of every boy I’ve ever loved
My heart drowns when winter comes
I’ll cut you out, just like every other one
I want you back
Even though we wouldn’t last
I want you back
Even though we wouldn’t last
This, the last time that we kissed
My left hand closed to a fist
All the moments that I missed
Came spilling out without assist
There, the day you pulled my hair
You said they’d hear us from downstairs
And though they could, we didn’t care
Life’s too short for it to be
Want to speak, but you interrupt
I’m on the bus when the last countdown goes off
Calling home and hanging up
You know it’s me, even though my number’s blocked
I want you back
Even though we wouldn’t last
I want you back
Even though we wouldn’t last
I want you to come in me
Exploit my right to motherhood
I want you to come in me
Leave me like a father could
I want you back
Even though we wouldn’t last
I want you back
Even though we wouldn’t last
I want you back