Infected

There’s something inside of me
It tears it all apart
What I once was can never be
What you will be I’ll never see
Can’t find the strength to erase it
As it crushes my will to live
Don’t want you close enough to smell me
God I wish I had the courage to kill
Always there to beat me down
To remind me of who I am
The one to hold me back
When I pretend I’m alive again
Don’t wanna be the way I am
I’d like to turn around and walk away
I wish I had the courage to kill
God I wish I had the courage to kill
I wish I had the courage to kill
No one can see me now
Alone with my doubt and fear
I’m so tired of myself
So if you leave me can I come to?
Once I tried to listen
But I just could not understand
I’m a stranger to myself
So if you leave me can I come to?
If you leave me can I come to?
Am I someone special?
Can I be replaced?
I keep repeating myself
Did I disappoint you?
Did I always fail?
I keep repeating myself
There’s something inside of me
It tears it all apart
What I once was can never be
What you will be I’ll never see
Can’t find the strength to erase it
As it crushes my will to live
Don’t want you close enough to smell me
God I wish I had the courage to kill
Am I someone special?
Can I be replaced?
I keep repeating myself
Did I disappoint you?
Did I always fail?
I keep repeating myself
Am I acting strange?
Or just like everyone else?
I keep repeating myself
Can’t someone help me?
Can’t you see I’m afraid
Can’t you see I’m afraid…
I’m afraid