Barely There

At school I feel most comfortable alone in a bathroom stall
Surrounded by the quotes and gossip scratched into the wall
Vanity, profanity, doodles, words of inspiration
Cries for help, phone numbers, usernames, and creepy invitations
Me, the words, a toilet, and a door that I can lock
A place away from people, where I’m boxed in
And I don’t have to talk
Baby I have a lot to say, lot to say, lot to say
Maybe just not today, not today, not today
Override the thoughts, discard the feelings
Close the app inside my mind whose job is to keep reeling
Just to find a reason everything feels scary and I’m barely there
Life is like an ocean and some days I don’t know how to swim
When I try to stay afloat, I fail
I try to climb on passing boats, sometimes I only flop around
And on those days I just go back to not making a sound
But I have learned to breathe the water, brave the cold, and grow a mermaid’s
tail
Baby I have a lot to say, lot to say, lot to say
Maybe just not today, not today, not today
Override the thoughts, discard the feelings
Close the app inside my mind whose job is to keep reeling
Just to find a reason everything feels scary and I’m barely there
I may not be your cup of tea
But will you sip me just to see?
I promise I’ll continue to grow stronger
Just let me steep, and walk away
Give me a moment or the day
If I’m not ready, give a little longer
Baby I have a lot to say, lot to say, lot to say
Maybe just not today, not today, not today
Override the thoughts, discard the feelings
Close the app inside my mind whose job is to keep reeling
Just to find a reason everything feels scary and I’m barely there
Baby I have a lot to say, lot to say, lot to say
Maybe just not today, not today, not today
(Baby I have a lot to say)
Baby I have a lot to say, lot to say, lot to say
Maybe just not today, not today, not today
(Maybe just not today)
(Baby I have a lot to say)
Override the thoughts, discard the feelings
Close the app inside my mind whose job is to keep reeling
Just to find a reason everything feels scary and I’m barely there
A reason everything feels scary and I’m barely there
And I’m barely there
Barely there