Wonder What It Feels Like

I hate myself so much
That I cannot be loved
I wonder what it feels like
To feel something so nice
I wanna be your excuse
For your bad behaviour
I wonder what it feels like
To feel something so nice
I still stare at myself looking for some kind of help
I cannot believe that this is who I’m gonna be
Amen is what they say when I am breaking
I don’t think I should be the one you should be saving
You tell me I could be somebody’s someone to love
But I’ll give you reasons why I’ll never be loved
I don’t wanna leave this
But I feel so much risk
I wanna trust my gut
But you make me feel yuck
Why don’t you listen
When I say I’m different
I wanna trust my gut
But you make me feel so yuck
I still stare at myself looking for some kind of help
I cannot believe that this is who I’m gonna be
Amen is what they say when I am breaking
I don’t think I should be the one you should be saving
You tell me I could be somebody’s someone to love
But I’ll give you reasons why I’ll never be loved
I still stare at myself looking for some kind of help
I wonder what it feels like to feel something so nice
I cannot believe that this is who I’m gonna be
I wonder what it feels like to feel something so nice
Amen is what they say when I am breaking
I don’t think I should be the one you should be saving
You tell me I could be somebody’s someone to love
But I’ll give you reasons why I’ll never be loved
Amen is what they say when I am breaking
(I wonder what it feels like)
I don’t think I should be the one you should be saving
(I wonder what it feels like)
You tell me I could be somebody’s someone to love
(I wonder what it feels like)
But I’ll give you reasons why I’ll never be loved