The Beauty of My World

Long ago I tried so hard to lose you and to be with you
All at the same time
Touching you and still staying afar
And lately you have tried so hard to soothe and to caress me
Oh while all I dreamed of was to hide away, yet to be found
And someday I will trail my spirit’s voice
And hold on to what it says
And maybe I will be astounded by the beauty of my world
And nowadays I only seem to find my peace in piles of shards of failed attempts
to love
And failed attempts to take my life