Monsters

I used to be a monster shooting up in the office
Now I work and write rhymes to pay for this constant
Reminder in my brain that rewired the entire
Section responsible for feeling exhausted
I guess you could say I fake it
When I wake up every day and tell myself we’re gonna make it
Spending every second I’m awake thinking about
One day I’ll make some better mistakes then I’m feeling down
Sometimes I wanna blow my fucking brains out
Then I start to figure out another fucking way out
It’s like i got this defense mechanism
That doesn’t quite let me wreck the system I’m living in
It’s another phase of evolution
Naturally we’re selected as fast as we’re losing
Passing out Darwin awards right and left
Till I’m fighting all alone like I’m the last knight left
Jet Setting more than a trendsetter
I just wanna chill in a cabin and pen letters
I just wanna see what’s real in the world we’re living in
The dividends are pretty thin and no one ever really wins
Sitting on the couch eating mini thins
Wishing we were pretty slim tipping back SlimFast till we’re really sick
Summer never really ends
When you can afford to chase all the various perihelions
We really should be learning from the fungus
Instead of shooting each other over some dumb shit
All this micro-dosing got the macrocosm
Ripe for hosting inside our minds where the light was glowing
Fake a distraction and keep the meter going
While I rewrite vibes and get the reefer smoking
And if we cut ties you best believe it’s over
I ain’t got no smiles left for greedy jokers
(Big Cheese)
Rock steady, not leaving, no I’m not letting
All these negative thoughts weigh me down Pandora’s box is heavy.
I am not setting an example for you to follow please do not envy
This life is hollow I just wallow with these walls empty
And I’ma go until these bars left me
Not a lot to say but let me keep commenting
On this world we’re living in you are not ready
So crack a beer and sit it out while I
Start vetting
And betting
On all these hectic techs for mediation from expected pests
Trials tribulations and eclectic guests
Life’s a haunted house where’s the scare from next?
I wander through the hallways, god I’m scared to death of sinking into depth
Screaming out to ears it seems their will is deaf
Reaching troubled children call it UNICEF
A union cleft, a hole too deep to bury; secrets that are swept
Never benevolent, never been settling, always ahead of them, always malevolent,
sever the rest of them dreaming on mescaline, doing your test again,
set up the pessimist, guarding the premises, thrown from a precipice
Bang Click
Fucking vanquished
Watch your language exerting me like you bang shit
Why does everybody nowadays act abrasive
So embrace it, all you gotta do is win the races
Adulate to the point that your mistake erases, stuck running through the mazes,
lost in the verse now I’m turning pages
Arming up my life with this arsenal of phrases, gotta release this shit in
phases, stage this basis. Faces nameless
Fake this
(Mat Lee)
Doing time served like I’m shameless
No basis for the face lift just a glitch in the matrix
Something fun to do for amazement
Like jumping from the top of the building down to the basement