Search for Relief

Watch me, as the fear forces me to descend
If these were the last of my hours, you still could not make me repent
I never asked for any of this, and I never want to do it again
There’s nothing else left of me, but the bitter taste of resent
How can this, beat me to death?
Why do I, reject myself?
This will be the end of thee, for insanity just spoke to me
I’m in a search for relief
If only it was the last time, maybe I could live with the sins
But after ages of this treachery, I’m left with way too much within
While this fight stretches me too thin, I cannot see nor feel the end
But in this moment of my ailment, only agony is my friend
I crave this madness inside
And from this feeling, not even I can hide
While the world so steadily burns and my fragile mind collapses
I’ll try to muster my last strength, and rebuild from the ashes
A staggering scent of victory, but as I feared, everybody has left me
I want a break, I want out of this life, I no longer want to live all these lies
How can this, beat me to death?
Why do I, reject myself?
This will be the end of thee, for insanity just spoke to me
I’m in a search for relief
Where do I, find the strength?
How do I, retain my will?
I must go on, I will not falter due to hate
I will find my relief