Alibis

From the scrapes and bruises
To the familiar abuses
I’ll kick and scream but it never changes anything
I could spill my guts out
Wearing my best little girl pout
And I almost missed it
But nobody said that this was gonna be easy
This is not the man I hoped to be
And I’m just trying to stop the bleeding
I don’t know how to word it
I just started to deserve it
And all my, all my faces are alibis
And me, I’m half the man I wanted to be
Most times it all comes out wrong
I don’t know the words but I’ll hum along
There’s nothing familiar here anymore
To anyone or anything left to feel alive
And I still taste that sickness
And it makes me crazy without it at best
But I’m in the same place I used to be
But I’m trying harder not to be
This is not the man I hoped to be
And I’m just trying to stop the bleeding
I don’t know how to word it
I just started to deserve it
And all my, all my faces are alibis
And me, I’m half the man I wanted to be
So what am I? What am I? So what am I?
And all my, all my faces are alibis
This is not the man I hoped to be
And I’m just trying to stop the bleeding
I don’t know how the words go
I just started not to say no
Don’t want it, don’t get it
I know you won’t regret it
Don’t surface, don’t surface
And I feel so damned worthless
Another day is gone and all my faces are alibis
All my faces are alibis
And me, I’m half the man I wanted to be