Petals

I’ve often wondered if there’s
Ever been a perfect family
I’ve always longed for undividedness
And sought stability
A flower taught me how to pray
But as I grew, that flower changed
She started flailing in the wind
Like golden petals scattering
And I miss you dandelion
And even love you
And I wish there was a way
For me to trust you
But it hurts me every time
I try to touch you
But I miss you dandelion
And even love you
I gravitated towards a patriarch
So young predictably
I was resigned to spend my life
With a maze of misery
A boy and a girl befriended me
We’re bonded through despondency
I stayed so long but finally
I fled to save my sanity
And I miss you little sis and
Little brother
And I hope you realize
I’ll always love you
And although you’re struggling
You will recover
And I miss you little sis and
Little brother
So many I considered
Closest to me
Turned on a dime and sold me
Out dutifully
Although that knife was chipping
Away at me
They turned their eyes away and
Went home to sleep …
And I missed a lot of life
But l’II recover
Though I know you really like
To see me suffer
Still I wish that you and I’d
Forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine
And really loved you
I really loved you —
I tried so hard
But you drove me away
To preserve my sanity —
And I lound the strength
To break away fly…