How Can I Love

If I confessed to you
That it’s all been a show
My heart is bleeding blue
I can’t stand myself at all
And what I dread the most
Is if I let you too close
You’ll see shadows haunting me
And you will leave me ghost
How can I love when I don’t even like me?
How can I love when it feels like I’m drowning?
I can’t escape this overwhelming pain
I wish there was a way I could be saved
How can I love when I don’t even like me?
I wish there was a way, to open my heart to you
I feel so far away, laying here next to you
So I put on my mask, and I paint on my smile
Maybe one day I’ll have the strength to let you see all my scars
How can I love when I don’t even like me?
How can I love when it feels like I’m drowning?
I can’t escape this overwhelming pain
I wish there was a way I could be saved
How can I love when I don’t even like me?
Look up and down, I’m surrounded by darkness
Demons all around, they’ve turned me into heartless
Colder than a glacier
I wish I could erase the hate that I’ve felt and the scars that I have
And I’m drowning in tears, and I’m drowning shame
And I can’t escape my fears or any of this pain
To the girl who stares me in the mirror, don’t let them see who you really are
How can I love when I don’t even like me?
How can I love when it feels like I’m drowning?
I can’t escape this overwhelming pain
I wish there was a way I could be saved
How can I love when I don’t even like me?
How can I love when it’s something I don’t know?
Oh no
How can I love when I don’t even like me?