Back to Myself

Nothing to recall
What if I just cannot give a name
To what I think there is to blame
I’m only
Freezing it out
Castaway too
Numb to feel
Hail or silk or burning steel
I’m wounded by wars
I never really fought
Danny says it happens
But I would rather say
I’m deserving my time
To breathe and scream it out
And how would anyone expect me Here to shout
«I'm glad myself is back»
I long to cry out loud
I’ve been outside myself
And frosting in your doubts
But I won’t trail along with…
Lithium as I wake up Coffee to anaesthetize my shame
Doctors make it harder,
I’d only smoke it away
How can I throw it all to waist,
That bitter taste
And now it’s my turn
To spread it all about
You thought you’d get away
With all your lies so proud?
But I won’t trail along
It’s time to breathe and scream it out
I’ve been outside myself
And frosting in your doubts
But the ice is gonna crack.