Ever Since

Measure the moments by the almost and the came close
By the «What the fucks?» and the «I don’t knows»
Because soon they’re going to notice the space between us starting to show
We played the songs with all the wrong notes
Played 'em too slow to the empty rooms where your friends don’t go
Because they don’t need to know that there’s nothing good that doesn’t implode
But I know
Yeah I know that we don’t have the strength to let it go
If there was a way to fight a decade’s slow decay
There’d be no telling how the sadder songs would play
I’m just so sick of the words, sick of the feelings they can’t relay
There’s only so many ways you can burn out and drop off the earth’s face
Fuck off and fade away
Keep it down or drown it out
It all gets swallowed anyhow
If there was ever a high road they washed it out
It’s haunting how it all comes back around
Because you can’t turn the tables if they put nothing down
But you know that we don’t have the strength to let it go
Tell me, have I been a fool?
Was it something I did or I didn’t do?
Was it something you saw in them that I was staring through?
I guess we had it to lose, but that just makes it harder now that it’s through
You chose the other side of a mountain I can’t move