It's Been So Long

I don’t know what I was thinking
Leaving my child behind
Now, I suffer the curse and now, I am blind
With all this anger, guilt and sadness
Coming to haunt me forever
I can’t wait for the cliff at the end of the river
Is this revenge I’m seeking
Or seeking someone to avenge me?
Stuck in my own paradox
I wanna set myself free
Or maybe, I should chase and find
Before they try to stop it
It won’t be long before I become their puppet
It’s been so long
Since I last have seen my son
Lost to this monster
To the man behind the slaughter
Since you’ve been gone
I’ve been singing this stupid song
So, I could ponder the sanity of your mother
I wish I lived in the present
With the gift of my past mistakes
But the future keeps lurking in like a pack of snakes
Your sweet little eyes
Your little smile’s all I remember
Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper
Justification is killing me
But killing isn’t justified
What happened to my son? I’m terrified
It lingers in my mind
And the thought keeps on getting bigger
I’m sorry, my sweet baby
I wish I’d been there
It’s been so long
Since I last have seen my son
Lost to this monster
To the man behind the slaughter
Since you’ve been gone
I’ve been singing this stupid song
So, I could ponder the sanity of your mother