The Balance

As I watch the clock
My whole heart starts to drop
Times ticking away
It doesn’t stop
It never stops
On that mission again
Leaving behind what matters the most
The tears cloud my vision
I pretend to be fine but that’s a joke
Inside I’m torn to shreds
Before I fly high I numb the head
It’s part nerves part excitement part dread
Wish I could tell you
Something different instead
It’s bittersweet, I’m off balance
My choice hangs in the balance
I love the feeling, the challenge
It’s bittersweet, I’m off balance
My choice hangs in the balance
I love the feeling, the challenge
But I love them more
Time to punch the clock
The cycle never stops
I’m feeling pressure to please
To appease all sides and me
Don’t get me wrong
Don’t misunderstand
I love my work
It’s my passion
I take nothing for granted
Not a thing
Nothing
It’s bittersweet, I’m off balance
My choice hangs in the balance
I love the feeling, the challenge
But I love them more
As the long hand marks the minutes
On the clock
That goes tic then tock
My soul is aching
My heart is breaking
It’s bittersweet, I’m off balance
My choice hangs in the balance
I love the feeling, the challenge
But I love them more
It’s bittersweet, I’m off balance
My choice hangs in the balance
I love the feeling, the challenge
But I need them more
I need it all
To fulfill the call
I need balance
Balance