Dying to Feel Alive

You said you should be proud of yourself
Nothing to be proud about
I’m getting swallowed up by doubt
Too many times feeling trapped in the sheets
Too many nights feeling trashed in the streets
And I said, «this is nothing to be proud about»
I’d love to just sit quietly
Feeling someone
All the colder passing day
I’m dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I’ve been killing myself tryna fight the reasons why
Dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I’ve been killing myself, feeling more dead than alive
You said, «You gotta be kind to yourself»
Nothing to be kind about
Getting swallowed up by doubt
I loved you that I’m a fuck up, you see
I’ve spent all my life struggling to breathe
So I said, «Try and spell all my worries out»
I’d love to just sit quietly
Feeling someone
I’m dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I’ve been killing myself tryna fight the reasons why
Dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I’ve been killing myself, feeling more dead than alive
For the first time in a long time
I’m drunk on nothing but you
For the first time in a long time
For the first time
For the first time in a long time
I’m drunk on nothing but you
For the first time in a long time
I’m dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I’ve been killing myself tryna fight the reasons why
Dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I’ve been killing myself, feeling more dead than alive