I Can Never Change

Stress inside of me
I can’t get rid of it anymore
Determination it’s all been drained
And my heart is torn
All the horrible mistakes
All the nightmares the monster has made
All I wanted was love
But now the monster has won
I can’t bare the stress anymore
Now I’m broken down to the core
What have I done?
Is there a way out?
I don’t wanna live
In the stress and the doubt
I desire to perish
And yet I ask health
And I can’t get myself out of this hell
It’s all my fault
I hurt everyone
I was manipulated
By a dark someone
Now there’s too much evil to face
I can’t learn and
I can never change
I can never change
All alone again
I can’t find love I’m facing my downfall
Hiding my shame
Until someone exposes it all
I cannot fight anymore
I’m too weak as I watch my tears pour
Now they all hate me
I just want them to see
I don’t mean any harm and I
Don’t mean to tear anyone apart
What have I done?
Is there a way out?
I don’t wanna live
In the stress and the doubt
I desire to perish
And yet I ask health
And I can’t get myself out of this hell
It’s all my fault
I hurt everyone
I was manipulated
By a dark someone
Now there’s too much evil to face
I can’t learn and
I can never change
I can never change
(I can’t learn and I can never change)
Just when I thought I could be happy
I destroyed everyone’s hopes and dreams
I broke their hearts and broke my own
Now they all want me to be alone
I just want love and I don’t want to cry
I just wanna kill this monster that lives inside
But I’m losing the fight
Now I hate my life
Now all I think about is dark thought
And all about all of the hope I have lost
I can’t go back now
This is my fault
But no matter what I can’t lose it all
What have I done?
Is there a way out?
I don’t wanna live
In the stress and the doubt
I desire to perish
And yet I ask health
And I can’t get myself out of this hell
It’s all my fault
I hurt everyone
I was manipulated
By a dark someone
Now there’s too much evil to face
I can’t learn and
I can never change
I can never change
(I can’t learn and I can never change)
I’m sorry I hurt you all
Now I’ll leave
But just promise me
You’ll never be like me