ANXIETY

I took a second out my day to calm the fuck down
Now I got one less second to do something
What the fuck now my nigga
Uh, I figure it’s genetic man it suck how
The cards you got are permanent and shape the way you talk out loud
Or take a walk down town
I should be thinking bout the way the trees are looking
Or the smell of pizza cooking
Or the sound the breeze is workin' into me
Instead I’m hurting
Avoiding the moment
I pull the curtain
Hide me!
Cuz I don’t know what your intentions are at all
I feel so small and minuscule I want to call
To anyone who’ll stop this drenching of my soul
I feel the wall and kick right through
I fought it
Hot head
I wanna plant some flowers not the
Potted kind
I feel the power my
Retarded mind
Has got inside it find it
Hard to mind
My own business
My flow quick as a missile
Until it slow down
A glow stick and it click
Oh what a cool sound
I showed my momma
My music and she was so proud
She told me future
I choose it that hit me profound
I forget to breathe and
Where I put my damn keys
That’s a problem
Frame freeze it
Need it
Or so it seems
Cuz every picture
Fade away when no one there to see
People been living for forever wit no therapy
So why I’m different
It ain’t bout yo feelings
Our society is slipping
No support without a family
This paper got me thinking
If I gave him what I owe
Then why the fuck I gotta tip him nigga
This money’s uncaring
And it ain’t no fun sharing
But you selfish if you don’t
And if you do you must be happy right?
If higher numbers made you number wouldn’t that be nice?
I need to lay down
Just lie dead
I wanna run away to somewhere I can
Rest my head
The birds sound beautiful
The light bounce off
Off my fingers and my cuticles
I bite down soft on em
My father point it out now I’m embarrassed
I don’t know who I’d be without my parents
Work with what you got
They taught me
To not blow up the spot
Be healthy
And don’t talk down cops
Whether wealthy or
Poor they got more Glocks
Than you ever will
You felt it before
That’s good advice
Walking down the street
High then a kite
Bright light flashing
Ashing the blunt
The neighborhood is nice
THEY STAY ADDICTED TO THE CASH FLOW
MMM AND I’m JUST LAYING ON THE GRASS LIL MAMA
CAN YOU WATCH A NIGGA PASS THO?
MMM SEE HIM LEAVE YOU IN THE PAST
AND AMASS THOSE COMMAS?
STUPID LIL BITCH HATING ON ME
CUZ I AIN’T SUCKIN NO DICK FOR NO APPROVAL
OR A RUBLE WHATCHU ON A
HALF MADE PLAN
«LEMME GET THAT IN ADVANCE
IM TOO SCARED TO TAKE A CHANGE
I JUST NEED A LOT OF DOLLAS IN MY PANTS»
DO YA DANCE
IMMA DO MINE
FINE WITH BEING BROKE
ALL MY FIGURES COME IN DUE TIME
YA HONOR
THEY TRYNA GET A NEW PIECE OF MINE
BUT ALL THESE PEOPLE NEED AQUIRE
IS A NEW PEACE OF MIND
Hide me!
Cuz I don’t know what your intentions are at all
I feel so small and minuscule I want to call
To anyone who’ll stop this drenching of my soul
I feel the wall and kick right through
I fought it
La la la la la la la la lalala
La la la la la la la la lalala
La la la la la la la la lalala
La la la la la la la la lalala
La la la la la la la la lalala
Hey Josh, it’s Mom, I was just tryna get a hold of you to see how you were doing
Um, I don’t even know if you’re in… or somewhere else
Just wanna catch up with you
When you get a minute, call me back, okay?
Love you