Need To

I am confused
Fighting myself
Wanting to give in
Needing your help
Skin cold with fear
Feel it when we touch
Outside I don’t know you
But inside I’m fine
Can you see it in me?
Skin cold from touch
Each day confronted with what I have done
You pull me closer
I push you away
You tell me it’s okay
I can’t help but feel the pain
I hate you
Why are you taken?
I love you
I feel so helpless
Why is it you?
Ripping my insides each time I lay with you
Why do I cry?
Why do I really need to?
Why
Why
Why
Why
Fuck you, bitch
Why
Need to
Need to
Need to
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
I hate you
Why are you taken?
I love you
I feel so helpless
Why is it you?
Ripping my insides each time I lay with you
Why do I try?
Why do I fuckin' need to?
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Slut