Waking Up

Waking up today
I had the sense that it was time for change
But feeling demoralized, the perception is hushed
And I’m quiet now
Waking up today
I could barely feel my face
Not jumping up out of bed, but falling instead
Because my body’s numb
Look into a mirror
Would you recognize yourself?
You’ll find sometimes you don’t
Your friends ask if you’re okay
You’re turning blue as they wait for an answer
But you won’t
No, no you won’t
I feel my insides showing out
I want medicine but no amount
Can take me away, take me away from this
I must confront this confusing mess
Mother said, «Son, always do your best
Child, child now»
I wish I listened to you then
Look into a mirror
I don’t recognize myself
I’ve found sometimes I don’t
My friends ask if I’m okay
I’m turning blue as they wait for an answer
But I won’t
No, no I won’t
I should have listened to you then
I should have listened to you then
I should have listened to you then