tryna be okay

I, wake up roll out of bed
Breaks in career but the pain in my head
Poppin at a funeral ain’t worth being dead
So I’m getting young money tryna be okay
This body don’t owe me
This body don’t owe me nothing
Green homies ain’t homies, and these dead presidents they got be bluffing
I’m 25, going on still alive
Gettin money, feelin funny, tellin honeys «I don’t mind»
Said she got a guy, hook it up on hellish nights
Been there, bean that, benzo on my mind
But I gotta act like I’m not in my bag and
Being okay isn’t just bandwagon
Demons in my head outside I’m a dragon
Call iD and--
«Hey it’s anxiety from th other night»
Don’t call me on my cell
I don been under your spell
Highway sideways over mountaintops
Don’t make me go to hell
And my momma taught me well
Helped me stand up when I fell
But when standing feels like fallin
Boy don’t cry you gotta deal
Said I’m gettin young money tryna be okay
Anxiety sometimes inside of me, sometimes I try to be
Above it like the sky can be, but when I’m high I’m flying see
The way out is the way in, minimize my contemplation
Close my eyes define the space inside my mind is like a maze and
When I’m writing a feel good because the words are like a waterfall
And movement is the medicine for people stuck behind a wall
If you can make a sentence you can surely make a plan
Take a breath
Take a seat
Let it flow from your hands
You’re important, you’re a miracle and you are free
I wonder if my future self is stuck inside of me
And when I’m in alignment he can show me where to go
But if I’m in anxiety I’ll block myself with «no"'s
«No this», «no that», «I can’t», «I won’t»
But it’s crazy cause I know I’m special even when I don’t
I think that our anxiety is stronger when we slow
So thank you to anxiety for showing me to go
Don’t call me on my cell
I done been under your spell
Highway sideways over mountaintops
Don’t make me go to hell
And my momma taught me well
Helped me stand up when I fell
But when standing feels like fallin
Boy don’t cry you gotta deal
Said I’m gettin young money tryna be okay