Griever

I never used to dream like this
(Sifting through the sand)
Searching for something worth keeping
(Something to believe in)
I never lie awake at night
(Staring at the ceiling)
For the answers I’m seeking
Is anybody listening?!
I hear you knocking at my door, but I’m not ready (not ready!)
I sense you glaring down my back
I feel the hairs are standing on my neck
I’m not afraid of you, is that all you’ve got?
I’ve, been through it all
You’ve taken my father and brother and left my whole family alone
Stronger we grow, closer together, yet so far apart!
Standing face to face with darkness!
I can see it in your eyes
And as much as you hate to admit it!
I will live another night
If it weren’t for the mistakes I’ve made along the way
I wouldn’t be where I am today
I look to the decisions set in place
To shape the character of the future me
While others put their hopes on a shelf
And let their lives be controlled by someone else
I stand tall
(And I believe in myself!)
You know me well enough by now
I believe in myself!
Look at what you’ve started, over my dead body
Will I ever let you haunt me again?!
I know that I am far from perfect
But this pain should prove I’m worth it
With all these choices, what brought you here to me?
I’ve learned so much, and I have lived too little
What makes you think that you will take this from me?
I never used to dream like this
(Sifting through the sand)
Searching for something worth keeping
(Something to believe in)
I never lie awake at night
(Staring at the ceiling)
For the answers I’m seeking
Is anybody listening?!
I’m done waiting in line for my life to fall in place
Afraid to close my eyes
So death will have no chance to show his face
He’ll have no chance to show his face
I’ll be the one to dig my grave
But only when I’m ready
I’ll be the one to dig my grave!
So come, at me now!
With everything that you’ve got
I’ll be, waiting here, with one arm behind my back