Second Nature

Nothing I tried ever worked
But it was never up to me
It was never my choice
And now I can’t take anymore
As I fall to the floor
Two minds that I can’t fight against
The rage ignites, I only see one end
For me
Endless, it won’t stop
I know it never will
Two minds
One body
It’s myself that I’m fighting
No release
No cure
Can’t keep myself from dying
I serve his orders with a blind obedience
Now you recoil as the demon faces you
I don’t want to do it but it’s not up to me
Desperately dying in fear
What a weak way
I’ve made it this far in hell, what’s one more day?
I won’t buy the idea that there’s a solution
For my natural state
My world, my tomb
Two minds
One body
Can’t find the space in between
No release
No cure
The truth is that I’m dying