Rather Be Sick

I’m killing the messenger I’ve got a lead there is a system
Who’s pulling the strings? Who’s cutting my wings?
As time reveals a sky above the clouds are fading, fading, fading
I cannot die, I will not go!
So many sleepless nights
This flame has withered more than you ever know
So many sudden awakenings
Up in a high and down in a low
So many sleepless nights, so many sudden awakenings
This disease eats me up from within
The sickness locks me in, there’s no escape for me
This is it I will not be afraid
I’m not giving in no, I’m not giving in
Oh, I know now that it is done for me
Escape the void, be free
I need to know which way it could go
Where is that solid ground where I can hold my crown
I’m sick of living in a fucking nightmare, I will never go
So many sleepless nights
This flame has withered more than you ever know
So many sudden awakenings
Up in a high and down in a low
This disease eats me up from within
The sickness locks me in, there’s no escape for me
This is it, I will not be afraid
I’m not giving in, I said I’m not fucking giving in
The hell I sing keeps reminding me, there’s no escape for me
Won’t lie I’d rather be sick
Yes, I’d rather be sick than follow your lead
Yes, I’d rather be sick than follow your lead, yeah
This disease eats me up from within
The sickness locks me in, there’s no escape for me
This is it I will not be afraid
I’m not giving in, I said I’m not fucking giving in
I’m not looking for a remedy
The sickness locks me in, there’s no escape for me
I feel it buried underneath my skin
I’d rather be sick, than follow your lead
I’d rather be sick, than follow your lead