Why I Have My Grandma's Sad Eyes

It started like this
I was here right, standing leaning back
My deer in the headlights
Look never fails but hearing all the things that you said
Cut me to the core, blew me away
Like I got hit with a gunshot, like a bomb dropped
Stabbed with a white hot knife in the heart
While all these people still ask me why I have my grandma’s sad eyes
Now you know why cause this time
I didn’t see it coming
Couldn’t stop the running words out your mouth
They’re leaving me crushed
Sound louder than bombs hit harder than mack trucks
On highways knock me down now
Like the chump with the black eye hit with the uppercut
It tastes like blood and a case of ice cold pure devastation
I may never stand up again
I will never go out again, again
Oh fuck if this is the end, then I just want revenge
I just want to take you down with me
I’ve been so mad and furious love must be just for idiots
I’m shutting down, breaking down getting out of this shit hole ghost town
Cause all these people still ask me why I have my grandma’s sad eyes
I must have my grandma’s sad eyes
Time’s past, just like a gasp from some tiny cell inside
That won’t die sending out a quiet ping like a submarine
A lost transmission from a distant galaxy
So reach way down in the dark to the bottom of my rotten heart
To a place deep in my black lung for the song
I haven’t sung since I was a little brat from connecticut
When I felt so alone against the world picked always last
It saved me then will it save me now
It goes, universe, wrap your arms around me
Make me strong so I can take on anyone
I must have my grandma’s sad eyes
Now you know why
Now you know