Friends to Entertain

Better off, I tell myself
I’m in hell, you’re covering
This apartment, and I hate it
The sweet nothings at the start
Beats us, and we’re art
Greater story in the making
When I’m alone I get amnesia
The worst part of me wants you against reason
The glory days came and went
You ask for space, works to blame
I’m too much now, baby
You throw a party on a boat
I’m out of town, you fuck around
With a yellow bikini
Oh, it’s my birthday weekend, baby
Not that there’s a good time for cheating
How dare you fight for me this time?
How dare you promise anything this time?
I was there, in your arms, in July
And you’re swearing, «this time,»
Did you know it was a lie?
Driving home from your friends'
The first time I met them
Tell me they said, «Not beautiful enough for you»
But you defended my face
Was I supposed to celebrate
How you handled my disgrace?
And discreetly, Band-Aid where I’m bleeding
This kind of love leaves me no room for needing
How dare you fight for me this time?
How dare you promise anything this time?
But I was there, in your arms, in July
And you’re swearing, «this time,»
Did you know it was a lie?
Oh, it’s true
Baby, I want to believe you
Oh, it’s true
There’s a suitcase of things I’m holding on to
Your new lover plays my guitar
With a note that says
«For ever and a day you have my heart.»
This was not a case of indifference
I’m in a maze, chasing narrative
I’m losing weight 'cause I can’t eat
One day I’ll wear a yellow bikini
How dare you fight for me this time?
How dare you promise anything this time?
When I was there, in your arms, in July
And you’re swearing, «this time,»
Did you know it was a lie?
In the kitchen, we’re alone
Breakfast I made, fresh on the stove
And your eyes go grey
The hand I held turned away
Showed me the door in the home we made
And I hear my pulse race
I made it halfway down our street
The one we loved 'cause it’s named like me
Then in a text, you say «pack your things
I’ve got friends to entertain,»
hm. fuck