Lying to Myself

I’m a little out of touch with reality, it’s never been that nice to me
I like the pictures I paint the best
You always seemed more down to Earth, I was a little hesitant at first
But after that night in LA, well, you know the rest
It’s not hard to feel that good, when you’re drunk in Hollywood
So new to me, but you understood
I helped you up on that pedestal, damn you looked incredible
I guess coming down’s inevitable
Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head
Am I making it up, am I not making sense
Were you leading me on, now I’m too sad to tell
Were you lying to me or was I lying to myself
I picked out all my favorite things you said, then like a delusional architect
I built you up like a house of cards
Guess I really loved the idea of you, but the real problem is neither of you
Can hold me when it falls apart
You liked it up on that pedestal, cause damn you looked incredible
But coming down’s inevitable
Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head
Am I making it up, am I not making sense
Were you leading me on, now I’m too sad to tell
Were you lying to me or was I lying to myself
What if I trusted my intuition the way that I trusted you
Did you ever even need me the way that I wanted you
Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head
Am I making it up, am I not making sense
Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head
Am I making it up, am I not making sense
Were you leading me on, now I’m too sad to tell
Were you lying to me or was I lying to myself
Lying to myself
Lying to myself