Sweetheart

I always get it wrong
Even when I start out right
A vision held so long
Transfigures by desire’s own sleight
I stared into your life
It burned a hole through mine
You though I was your prize
A little of me died each time
And when you close your eyes
I lie in the dark
Wide-eyed, dumb in your arms
And while you are asleep
I roam through the dark
Bombed-out wreck of my heart
I’m getting so tired
I always let it fall
Even as I call the signs
So timid in your thrall
I couldn’t even meet your eye
But when you fall asleep
I drive though the dark
Deep out into the heart
Of the city I hide
And when I am alone
Belong to myself again
Disavow your claim on my skin
And though I am afraid
I won’t let it ride me thin
Never give my life again
Never give my life for him
Wanna pull my life back in