Party Thoughts

Flashing lights
Habits fight
To keep me out in this active night
Bass is knocking it can shake the floor
Faces talking while the drank is poured
My racing heart is trying to take some more
But I feel the pull to bounce and race for doors
I don’t understand why I’m here right now
Obvious answer’s get wasted, sure
Been making music, I can make some more
At another time
Maybe during a moment when the sun will shine
Cuz at night everything’s undefined
Then procrastination gets underlined
If I work all day and I party all night for the fun I find
When does realness come into play?
Say I’ll get it a different day
Keep praying that soon I’ll hit my pace
Got a bad lady in my face
Deadlines, I got deadlines
Bros tryna make sure I’m set, kinda
Wanna guarantee that we fetch dimes
But somewhere somebody else is working
He’s hungry and he’s deserving
He needs money, and he senses purpose
He’ll reach his before I reach mine… cause nothing deters him
No wild nights that break his focus
No regrets when those dates are over
Finish goals, celebrating closure
While I’m here, inebriated posing
And all my actions cast doubt on whether I really wanna have greatness moments
That’s failure
Jessica:
Is it seasonal?
Give me a reason, or
Some excuses to make
I’m abusing my days
I’m afraid
And you need to know
Cause it won’t even show
When you view me in raves
Dodging moves I could make
I just need to
Go
I just need to go away from here
It’s sucking out my soul
Desh:
I see these people, I hear excuses
I see these people, I hear excuses
Stressing from chasing the bag
Aye
Got me wildin' in this place
Yeah
Shots and I think of my Dad
Aye
Wondering what he would say
Yeah
Dream is consuming my head
Aye
I just needed to escape
Under pressure out here rap pursuing
Life ain’t really working how the pastor do it
Look I see her twerking making rapid movements
Got a needy ex and look we both be choosing
And I’m needing her too
Aye
Air smells weed and perfume
Aye
DJ like Guile with the boom
Aye
Last shot hit me in the chin like haduken
Different sides of me at odds like Ryu and Akuma
I just left the prayer and the grinding in my room huh
I never needed lots of people to teach me
But when they talk about my achievements
I seem to be leeching
I gotta be privy to the secrets
They speak and they leave me
People believing
That I’m gonna make it look easy
I’m hoping that none of them see me
After beating on my chest though
Because dreaming to keep eating is so stressful
My generations opportunities are cesspools
9 to 5 but when do I have time to be successful?
Woo
I Want to fold like Origami
Aye
Out in the lights but no Yagami
Yeah
World on my shoulders call me Kami
Aye
Yeah
At least now it feels that way
Still don’t know why I’m in this place
Can’t seem to find the strength to vacate
I just need to
Go
I just need to go away from here
It’s sucking out my soul
I see these people I hear excuses
I see these people I hear excuses