Please Help

I almost flipped after first time i kissed you
If looks could kill shortly looked lit like a pistol
Hard to trust, relationships could be fickle
People chasing clout looking out to get u
But something felt good tho we held good
Never got tired hung out every time we could
We rode the train to hit midtown up for bowling alleys
Old school arcades renting bikes blowing calories
Ice cream snacks and Vietnamese dinners
Yoga classes Bikram style during the winter
You used to like yearn for it, orgasms like it’s painful
Tearing up a bit like it’s shameful
We never judge, kinkiness just cause
Embracing our dark side that’s the best type of love
But could tell there was like something missing u was holding back
Something about u nervous, I was so relaxed
I rather love and lose Big Pun song
Won’t hold against u if another chick did son wrong
But I can tell that ya scars is deep and still open
I’m anti-septic, still she skeptic
Trusting you with myself
Knowing that it got me
Further away from myself
I gotta start loving myself
Before you can love me
I gotta start trusting myself
Before you can trust me
You always wanted to help… ahhh ahhh
I really wish you could love me… ahhh ahhh
I gotta start loving myself
Before you can love me
I gotta start trusting myself
Before you can trust me
Please help
How u go from warm a cold so fast?
Nice melanin the melon in ya jean so Phat
Round 1 after 5, I’m ready to go back
Round 3? Babygirl you crazy go relax
You was sweating me the week prior now u so fast
So emotional u wanna make sure I got ya back
Trust ain’t a contract u got risk something
Gotta make ya heart vulnerable or else you’ll miss something
Got a room in queens vacation for me
Back side rounded up she would shape it for me
We watched Netflix, Hulu, fire stick and all
All ya little body parts girl I kissed em all
All our exes be hating, we piss them off right
We get twisted eating Bonchon chicken all night
Then I might throw some ice on her
Thinking one day maybe marriage?
Sprinkle a little rice on her
We never know right? Yo let’s see what up tho
My forever crush both us we lust tho
Hustlers that PayPal money dropping on us
Salute queen I’m a graduate ya with some honors
Trusting you with myself
Knowing that it got me
Further away from myself
I gotta start loving myself
Before you can love me
I gotta start trusting myself
Before you can trust me
You always wanted to help… ahhh ahhh
I really wish you could love me… ahhh ahhh
I gotta start loving myself
Before you can love me
I gotta start trusting myself
Before you can trust me
Please help