Abyss

Could never understand why I never could belong
These days & nights go by while the future rests unstirred
I’m balled up like a child, sleeping on its back
And in the blackest nights, we’re running just to collapse
I’m lonely without you, and I swear that it’s the truth
You’re in everyone I find & I ain’t fine & I’m
Reaching out for you; in a heap inside our room
Who will reach into the abyss and pull me from this mess?
I remember Northern Spain, how the culture was not mine
You would make me feel appeased; I would make you feel uneasy. The silence
rectified by words so sharp & plain, like
‘I'm leaving us alone', and like, ‘I'm leaving you this way'
I’m lonely without you, and I swear that it’s the truth
You’re in everyone I find & I ain’t fine & I’m
Reaching out for you; in a heap inside our room
Who will reach into the abyss and pull me from this mess?