Horses

Girl, what can I say?
I’m ballin', I’m ballin'
I’m so lost, I can’t never call around
I’m stallin', but I keep fallin' down
Tell me now, why do you treat me like some kind of clown?
Oh, now this clown walkin' around with a purple frown, no
No tricks up my sleeve
Baby gon' give me a choice now
I need you to be using your voice now
This ain’t the time for them childish games
The lord in my head and it went up in flames
Think how that’s makin' me feel
It got me feelin' like none of it’s real
I talked to God and he don’t want to deal
Shit, demons on me, keep gettin' the chills
I tend to stare at my own storm but get upset when it rains
This cloud got horses and I’m at the wheel, but can’t get the rain
Goin' 120, can’t let off the gas
In the rain, but I still can’t crash
So I knew I was meant to last
And I never looked at the past again
Past again, past again
Never looked at the past, never looked at the past again