Portrait

You don’t really want this
I don’t wanna force it
I was only open cause I thought you would be honest
I know I was wrong then
(Always said the wrong thing)
I was only hoping you would end up being worth it
I was at my worst then
You already know this
Better off alone
But still I felt you getting closer
Wasn’t what you hoped yeah
I know that i’m broken
I just wanted someone I don’t think that you’re the person
I know I always mess it up i’d rather not get involved
And no there’s never any point but still we’re talking it up
And now i’m feeling really good
It never stay very long
I try and cover up the mess I know I made of myself
And now i’m
Not doing better nah it’s breaking me down
Another chance i didn’t take I wasn’t rid of my doubt
Another plan i should have made but now it’s late and you’re gone
And i’m fucked up all on my own in the dark
By myself in the car
I don’t want this at all
But i’m used to the hole
Where i always end up
Every cause
It was lost
From before i would start
See the mark that i got where you tore me apart
I got your hopes up
Should’ve never done that
Always had our clothes off
Wasn’t really romance
Almost getting choked up
Think of how it all went
I been making progress
I don’t wanna go back
Still I never learn yet
I ain’t going nowhere
Remember when we first met
Know it wasn’t long
And i’m not even who I was then
I was lacking substance
I just had to show them all that I was good for something
It wasn’t ever enough for you but I won’t feel sorry
And you don’t look from a point of view but the one you were born with
I know i said i was over you but i can’t ignore this
And now I sit on my bed in my room cut my face from the portrait