I Can't Cry

Emptiness and blackness are filling my head
Why should I live? I would rather be dead!
The heavens are raining down on me
Black forever is all I want to be
Somewhere my mind got lost
Now I pay the cost
My mind lies smashed and in agony
All I want is my soul in ebony
I don’t need hope, I don’t need recreation!
For I opened my heart and to my consternation
It was small empty and dark
No light and no spark
And I can’t even cry
Though the tears are in my eyes
And I can’t even feel
For my wounds will never heal
I lay awake at night
Torn to pieces from my fight
My inner rage that won’t let go
No colours fill my life
No light can cut me like a knife
For black’s the only colour I would paint my soul!
And I can’t even cry
Though the tears are in my eyes
And I can’t even feel
For my wound will never heal
And I can’t even trust
For my hopes crumbled to dust
And I will never Love again
All I want and need is pain!