Contempt

I was damned to repeat it
Temerity leaking and left behind, miles out in the burning sea
-Where my virtue stayed afloat
My summer came, I let it slip
And now regret tugged at my coat
In spite of the seed I chose to grow
When you smiled, I’d reconcile with all disdain my body showed
And with pretentious, tired eyes…
I would look into the sea
And long a crown that never fit
I would not admit defeat
Had it gone differently, I could have been a king!
Now contrition curled my skin
Does it amuse you to watch a fool like me
Walk down a fishing line stretched 'cross a crater of sulfur and failure?
Alive, but never I’d felt so dead
That beast, she groaned inside my head to be set free
Ripping flesh from bone
Her watchful eyes had been exposed!
Salvation was unknown to me
While I was trapped in that wolf skin
This mind, o' it was already forsaken!
And I breathed out flames and lies and lies
Let me demonstrate the lack of faith I’d obtained
True self, like a diamond, was hiding and covered in soot
Underneath mirrored mountains, you squirmed and you shook
Such life should never be contained!
So you claw and you bite and you scream
I was made to show the world how much a failure
Could grow and learn from his mistakes
Instead of rotting in their wake
All the glory—all the fame could never bring me consolation
Forever feed this fire that calmly vampires and erodes itself
-To only bring contempt