Speechless

So much to say I’m speechless
A weakness of mind is a strength for the, low low in character
A low blow pariah, no I won’t embarrass yes
A who cares if left in the cold
'cause now I can see why
And my, mistake was to take your word for some minor that
That was a flaw of mine, so I
Gotta dig out this whole scenario
I was a devout defender of you
Till I seen how weak of a character you disintegrated into
So now who gon' be fightin' for you?
All your battles, I put down the burden
I let them all scatter, and they
Get they panties all up in a bunch
I just hush and trust the truth rush to the top 'cause
Keep it honest, I coulda kept us in fondness
I coulda let it disintegrate
And I never regret it in my subconscious, but it was toxic
I lost monsters, someone just slipped through the cracks
Just sits on the back of those who pull weight
And I used to debate that I was mistaken but
Now I’m awake and I know I’m just blatant in my
Belief in the inner good
I couldn’t bet and see somebody from my neighborhood
Just tossed to the side, I like to think I was
Instrumental in helpin' you to survive
But I see if it wasn’t me, it’d be someone else
And I, can’t believe remove myself
And no I can’t stay mad just a little surprised
I had a front row seat to somebody’s demise
'cause now
I’m sayin'
People think I’m just playin'
'cause I’m speakin' aloof
But I learned a couple things from my youth
What’s good?
So much for giving you the benefit now
Not everyone of 'em can handle it yo
Not everyone is so benevolent yo
So much for giving you the benefit now
Not everyone of 'em can handle it now
Not everyone is so benevolent yo
So bye-bye be gone
It don’t reflect on you, oh no, oh no
Just know that it ain’t yo fault
So go 'head, tell that weak-a** character in your life bye-bye be gone
Tell them weak mind
They may need help but don’t ever seek mine
And I may cease cryin' from here this day forth
All I asked was to stay a course
But of course oh no, oh
Tell em ride slow
Never meet eyes if you crossin' my path
'cause last time you asked had yo hand out
Oh what a shame it’s a lame man down